i had the worst test ever yesterday.
fortunately it was just french, and nothing more important.
even surpassed 205 in the undoable field.
now i know what it means when people say if you attempt to tackle a language that you do not have REAL passion in, it will be difficult.
i understood all the questions, but nothing of the content in the casette or the comprehension gahhhh.
shall stick to my japanese from now on and forget about trying out new languages for the fun of it >.<
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saw an episode on the train home.
i really feel sorry for kids nowadays.
1. Whose photos do you put in your handphone?
my phone is still ancient enough to not have colour. and polyphonic ringtones.
2. What time do you usually sleep?
twelve plus and i'm usually not thinking anymore.
3. What did you do before doing this?
blogsurf.
4. Who do you meet most often lately?
schoolmates.
5. When you need help, who do you ask?
i don't consult anyone.
6. What are you thinking now?
whether to buy shock.. and biz comm final presentation material.
7. Who are in your speed dials?
don't use them and don't know how to.
8. Who do you want to hug when you feel it?
i never feel like hugging.
9. What is the last movie you watched?
brokeback mountain.
10. Where did you go last night?
nowhere. stoned in front of the computer doing up slides for biz comm.
11. What disappoints you?
myself.
12. How old did you start sleeping alone?
i usually don't.
13. What do you want to do now?
right now, ignore all that's left of the semester.
14. What do you do everyday, besides eating, sleeping, etc?
stone, go to school, blast music, go online blah...
15. What activity makes you bored?
seriously, studying.
16. Your favorite pet?
nahh.
17. What color makes you happy?
colours themselves should do the job.
18. Favorite things in your room?
laptop, V6 collection, my big table, and novels. hah.
19. Last thing you bought for your room?
V6 dvds to add to my collection~
20. Instrument in your room?
none.
21. Do you cook? What is the last thing you cooked?
i don't cook although i can.
22. Miss someone? Who?
__________. although i am starting not to miss him anymore.
23. Plan to buy something?
plan but still can't decide whether to or not. shock dvd!!
and formal wear for PA.
24. Last gift from someone?
club 21 gift voucher.
25. Are you satisfied with your life now?
i should be, but am not.
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* Honestly, what's on your mind?
honestly, whether i should buy shock. it shouldn't be such a big problem, but ya, i'm conscious of how much i spend on johnny's nowadays.
* Honestly, whom are you chatting with when u online?
it depends who is online.
* Honestly, what is it that you REALLY should be doing right now?
sleeping. i have classes at 830am tomorrow!
* Honestly, have you brushed your teeth today?
its three am in the morning... so no.
* Honestly, are you a good friend?
nope. i'm bad at understanding people.
* Honestly, do you really think going to school is all that important?
important but it isn't everything.
* Honestly, what are your dreams about mostly?
i don't remember dreams.
* Are you HONESTLY single?
yups.
* Honestly, what are you so happy about right now?
my V6 dvds are on the way to meeee. sounds bimbotic i know.
* Honestly, what are you so sad about right now?
myself.
* Honestly, how old are you now?
20... going on 21.
* Honestly, who are you missing?
inocchi and his crap on tv.
* Honestly, have you ever stolen something?
yups. alot of stuff back then.
* Honestly, what song are you listening to right now?
remioromen - konayuki.
* Honestly, who do you want to meet at this very moment?
inocchi. yes i'm serious.
* Honestly, where do you like to be kissed?
i don't know yet.
* Honestly, do you like/love someone right now?
define.
* Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
nopes. i don't really hate anybody.
* Honestly, who do you wanna hug right now?
no one. i'm used to being independent. besides i'm not a person who gives hugs -_____-
yups that makes me kinda lousy friend to have.
* Honestly, are you bored?
yes.
* Honestly, who do you wanna slap right now?
jw.
* Honestly, have you answered all the questions above honestly?
yes i have.
issues...
all unresolved :(
春分の日です！！
spring equinox day today, where the japanese officially abandon winter wear and embrace the new year in casual wear without gloves, coats and what not.
right now, its the sakura season! which brings along version 5- tranquility.
looks nothing like sakura though, but i was lazy to make one :P
so..
its mitsui oil asia for my professional attachment. happy with it (it was my first choice anyway) mostly because its japanese (silly i know), its a two minute walk to raffles place mrt station and its only 8 weeks attachment, instead of the usual 10.
the only downside is, i'm the only intern.
oh wells, you can't have your cake and eat it too.
its silly of me to believe the uranai i heard on jplus this morning, but it was quite accurate, surprisingly.
you can tell i had a pretty good day can't you?
shuhui's party last night.
we were walking around finding shades for her and i didn't know shades could cost that much. in all the shops we went, a decent pair of shades cost about 400 bucks.
at that rate, i can afford two rounds of DVD shopping~
got a guess watch for her in the end.
hah its getting difficult buying presents nowadays. everybody has got what they need... all the others are just extra.
well maybe i don't...:)
haven't been to toa payoh in a long time. but the place has changed sufficiently for me to recognise less than half of it -___-
ended up playing some polar bear game in her living room. that's what you end up with when u put the vjc class together in a big group.
we could even end up playing murderer along the corridor!
chatty mood today~
but its back to marketing sighhhh. thankfully, its the last presentation for it.
F.T.O!! X)
i did what i promised myself i would never do.
strangely, it felt good.
it's been a long and slack week.
which included four hours of mahjong two nights in a row.
it helped, really.
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我就是个笑里藏刀的人．
那又怎样？
今日あたし達は授業の終わった後マージャンをすることになっている。だって、何人は疲れたから、するつもりは当たり前に破れた。期待だから、少し悔しかった =(
それで、一人でオーチャードへ買い物をしに行って来た。紀伊国屋に一ヶ月ぐらい行かないから、絶対に行かなきゃ。意外に、二十パーセントセールがあるので、「頭がいい人、悪い人の話方」という本を買った。昔からほしいので、今日突然買う衝動が起こった（笑）。
他に、雑誌が欲しいだが、全部でトニセンのインタビュが全くない！なにやそりゃ。。。カミセンだけのがある、NEWSとKAT-TUNのものがいっぱいあったので、失望で帰った。
オーチャードから１７１番号のバースに乗って、一時間半の帰宅旅びに始まる。最近の気分がちょっとわるいんけど、この時間でいっぱいものを考えられた。
でも、答えを考えないから、今までまだ悩んでいる。生きてきたの意味が一瞬間分かんない、すげぇがっかりする。やっぱり、まだ弱いんだね、あたし。
なぜ私がこんな立場になってられるんですか？
今日の一日、癒しで過ごした。
学校のことについて、何もやらないよ。午前１１時に起きて、昼ごはんの後、今までいろんな日本語の番組をパソコンで見てしまった。
去年の「ミュジック・ステション」スーパーライブを全部で４時間を見て終わった。新しい凄い曲が発見したので、もうビックリした。たとえば、レミオロメンの「粉雪」とラク・エン・シェールの「new world」など。ただ、わたしはジャニースの作品だけ聞こえることにもう慣れたから、こんなアティストの作品が全然無視した。
他に、先週の「学校へ行こう！MAX」を二度見られた。イノッチがすんごいカッコイイよ！彼は、意外に美少年の顔と仕草を見せて貰った、わたしはパソコンの前で驚くになっていた。すげぇカッコイイし、いや、きれいだよ！
女子高校の漫画家達もすごいわ。「告白」のテーマという漫画を健とイノッチに見せた時、イノッチの表情はかわいらしいそうだ。でも、なぜが健がいつもつこみんでくれたんだよ！？
更に、日本の会社にわたしの履歴書を提出した。成功したら、８週間に東京の品川に勤めに行く。期待なんだけど、日本語はあまり上手じゃない訳、自信が全くないね。
履歴書の中で、自分の功績もあまりよくないだから、機会がとてもちちゃいと思う。
という訳で、最近たくさんものを考えられた。自分の学力、強み、お好みこととか。なん度も、自分の能力が疑う、できるかどうかを迷っていた。
だから、今も少し混乱した。なにかやってることも知らなかった。
どうすんの？
だれか助けてくれ？
crashed thirteen hours last night.
which was a big feat, considering the fact that i clocked an average of six hours nightly for the past two months.
but it's over-
and i don't wish to talk about it anymore.
safe to say i never want to have any of them in any of my project groups ever again.
wearing my glasses to school on thursday got alot of response from everyone. perhaps it was the first time but when rina saw me, she looked like she saw a stranger, plus the fact that i was wearing my "old-man" jacket as well.
and zy said that i looked totally like a film director in that jacket. hmm...
french test yesterday was bad. the written part was a total blank; at least the roleplay wasn't that embarrassing.
what am i to say? i spent all of half an hour in preparation.
to you:
i've tried damn hard for the past five years. my patience is wearing thin.
do NOT ever pull such a stunt on me again.
or you'll force me ignore you forever.
-take a deep breath-
1, 2, 3....
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
i feel like strangling ALL four of my groupmates. -cracks knuckles-
they actually wanted to hand it a report that looks totally like a bad first draft!
if i hadn't requested to look at it before they handed in, i might have just failed the project.
count me fortunate that i volunteered to bind and hand in the final report.
yes i know i should calm down.
i am, and i'm going to embark on rewriting the entire 8 pages full of *censored* that they just passed to me. yes, ON MY OWN.
wish me luck.
had a good day in school today.
if everyday were like this, i'd have nothing to complain against ntu. but things are not meant to be- gahhh.
basically biz comm was slack. and i mean s-l-a-c-k. we spent an hour "supposedly" discussing some articles to be presented. but me and rina had already volunteered ourselves since the guys were presenting the formal one on thursday. so we had already read them.
and i think our tutor is beginning to -.-" at my group.
we make the most noise, act crappy and talk crappy all the time...
the presentation was crappy as usual. didn't even bother to summarize the facts in the readings as the previous teams had gone through it already. so i just highlighted the main point and gave two quite long examples.
at least the class showed some interest in the girl famous for blowjobs hah.
french was really good! learnt the days of the week, months, holidays and what not. and was exposed to some history of france, very kindly told to us over a period of forty-five minutes during our lesson.
language lessons are supposed to have more of these elements methinks :)
maybe it's the unambitious me talking,
but working in either kinokuniya or hmv in the future seems really appealing right now.
あふれるほどの情熱を 胸に抱きしめて 歩き始めよう
道に迷った時でも 逃げ出さない強さ 誇れる自分でいよう
「僕は僕でやってみるよ」言った自分に自信がなくて
また今日もごまかして 人混みに紛れてみる
平凡とか 地道だとか なんかちょっとカッコ悪くて
プライドや意地を捨てた 自分を探してた
器用には生きてく術もなくて 愛に傷ついたりもした
現実はツライ でもがむしゃらに 叫び続けていたい wow
果てしない夢を描こう 過ぎ去った日々に しばられないで
あふれる涙ぬぐって 立ち向かう強さ 誇れる自分でいよう
ジョーク飛ばして 笑いあった 途切れる会話の隙間
君の気持ちを 確かめたくて 強く手を握った
もっと素直に受け止められたら 遠回りしなかったけど
君と出会えたことの喜びを 信じ続けていたい wow
季節は巡り続ける だけどいつだって 一人じゃないよ
輝く未来探して 手を伸ばせば ほら何かが変わり始めた
できない事なんてなんにもないから そう自分を信じていこう
あふれるほどの情熱を 胸に抱きしめて 歩き始めよう
道に迷った時でも 逃げ出さない強さ 持ち続けよう
果てしない夢を描こう 過ぎ去った日々に しばられないで
あふれる涙ぬぐって 立ち向かう強さ 誇れる自分でいよう
- V6 (1998)
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my favourite-st ever song from V6.
the lyrics are really meaningful~
i need all the motivation i can get from it now.
watched brokeback mountain a few hours ago.
we didn't even get asked for identification! were prepared to be turned away but... conclusion- we look old lah.
maybe it was the young girl that sold us the tickets who was too embarrassed to doubt our ages. but we were only a few months off 21 :P
content wise... thought-provoking although the switching of scenes was sometimes too fast, or too abrupt. haha.
nothing much more to say either =X
went to collect my JLPT certificate too. and found out that bugis village had a second level.
proves how long i haven't been there aye?
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V6's musicmind DVDs are on the top of oricon!!
omedetou!! (although i haven't bought any yet sighh)