i have had about enough.
everything i like or do, there's something wrong with it.
what's wrong with liking cult movies by takeshi kitano and movies with unedfing themes?
what's wrong with reading books that promote violence and homosexuality?
what's wrong with buying dvds that costs hundred bucks?
what's wrong with fretting over johnny's stuff now that exams are over?
what's wrong with liking sanrio stuff?
what's wrong with collecting be@rbricks?
what's wrong with not liking clothes shopping and being choosy about what i buy?
what's wrong with splurging on "high class" dining?
what's wrong with me being a little less than neat?
fuck.
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on the other hand, town was horrible today.
throngs of people rushing to use their newly cashed progress packages coupled with the sweltering heat along orchard was enough to leave me with a throbbing head the entire day :(
i'm looking forward to the cool winter in manchester.
start of the holidays!
screwed 205 as well. and don't wish to talk about it.
settlers after helping wj to move out of her hall. we played some sort of citadel and tunnel game which required strategy and scheming and left everyone confused at each others' identities towards the end.
was fun though ^^
mahjong at hong's house later.
chionged from seven plus all the way till six in the morning but we only managed to play three rounds! including breaks to watch amazing race and play with hong's niece and nephews, supper trip and a few rounds of bridge.
had a few nail biting incidents which made it all the more fun too although everything evened out in the end and i lost less than two bucks.
crashed three hours before meeting xinen for some "high class stoning" in town. as quoted by her.
but what we did was almost total stoning at cineleisure food court, then tcc in shaw. nice place it was, but i still prefer my secret hideout :)
elections the big topic everywhere now.
it has even gotten my usually apathetic friends' tongues wagging. but too bad i don't get to vote since i'm not 21.
i don't even get a progress package sigh :(
shall go attempt to clear my disk drive now.
it has only 372mb of free space out of 40gb!?
everything's back to square one.
sad.
company law today sucked.
don't even ask.
marketing and french down.
company law next tuesday and risk management next thursday and i'll be done.
finished the french paper within an hour.. for a two and a half hour paper.
it was fun to do lah- no stress.
unlike the marketing one.
i just know i write too slowly for my own good.
no excuses.
me and hong were talking about people around us committing suicide and what should we see on the train but the headlines of today's paper. sad thing, but kids nowadays... don't really think before acting.
i speak from experience -nods-
unrelated note of randomness here but-
i haven't spoken to my sis in almost an entire week.
hmm.
exams start tomorrow.
so does inocchi's new drama. detective story!!
was looking through my french just now, and i suddenly felt like taking level two.
am i up to it?
stewed pork buns, corn and pineapple for brunch :)
happy good friday everyone~
２７歳お誕生日おめでとう、堂本剛さん!!
ね、最近ちょっと太りますが、いつもめちゃ可愛そうですよね。自分の意識でちゃんと自分の世界と興味あるものを作ってたことをあたしがすごい羨ましいですよ。じゃ、ソロコーンを頑張って行こうぜ！
最後に、光一くんと「付き合い」も頑張り続けろよ~ =P
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「自分を探す」
そうやっているもん...
i don't know what i'm feeling now.
i've lost my ability to be in control.
the feeling of being hung in limbo-
gravitating neither towards the sky-
nor the ground-
i totally hate this.
i had a very screwed day yesterday.
these are the reasons it wasn't due to:
1)
skipping french. i don't even feel guilty, which is totally bad and she was going through past year exam papers and returning us our third quiz.
for someone who is almost totally lost, there wasn't any incentive to skip, but wth.
2)
failing my 205 quiz. yes F, for fuck.
no idea whatsoever, but nevertheless, F doesn't look nice anywhere on your grades, especially now there isn't an E grade.
3)
i didn't get my choice university, kansai gaidai for instep.
instead, the office offered me newcastle, in united kingdom. okay with it though, but i CAN'T match my only possible core subject to be taken there: AB311.
that means i'll have to take it along with the three accounting subjects in the last semester --> working myself to death.
exaggerating as usual.
and because of that, my planned week-long trip to tokyo from 17th to 24th december has to be cancelled. or rather somebody has to go in my place since it is already nicely booked and it is impossible to fit into my schedule.
if all these didn't screw up my day badly enough,
what is it?
in korea, i got mistaken as a korean.
in japan, more than one person spoke to me in japanese.
a few minutes ago, along the corridors of ntu, somebody thought i was a taiwanese.
do i look so NOT singaporean?
thankfully, a chinese national i do not resemble.
yet.
i just read a totally depressing entry by one of my friends.
and it affected me, which is totally disasterous, just three weeks before my finals.
i've always admired people who can use the right words to describe how they are feeling, just like the entry i just read. the imagery used was powerful enough to strike a chord with my already disoriented mind. and regretfully, i let it.
i guess everyone has their own issues-
it depends on whether they choose to let them out,
or keep them inside, like me.
at the end of the day, it is you who chooses how affected you want to be by them aye?
i've been practicing escapism for far too long.
am breathless with excitement at the moment.
because i just watched the concert i came SO close to watching live last december, but unfortunately was not meant to be.
yups, received it in the mail four hours ago.
and i was kidding. am high but not breathless XD
it was really good, especially the songs from the musicmind album itself. but the MC part was really really long! bikkurishita... all fifty minutes of it went into the video itself in three different segments! hajimetedayo~
most of it was "crap" as usual, with inocchi leading the entire conversation. okada was cute la.. the part when they were discussing the "tsukiai" was, as go put it, "kimochi warui desu" though XD
i really liked zetsumyo music!. he really has a talent for writing all sorts of songs and pull it off seamlessly :)
but the costumes this time round was... less appealing haha.
the extras deserve a special mention though.
inocchi in black and looking semi-serious during the interview is almost absolutely the only thing i need to remind me how much i lurve them.. and will continue supporting them to the end.
okay, maybe that was exaggerated, but you get the point.
conclusion-
it was worth all of the hundred and twenty six bucks :D