今の気分.. 多分知りたくない.
received my pay cheque today-
it was a good two hundred more than i expected, and it is always a pleasant surprise to have extra so...:)
embarked on the long-procrastinated mission to clear my room last night.
slow progress as always, but now i have an entire drawer dedicated to my V6 collection. my collection looks very small though in that drawer hmm...
and i threw out almost forty CDs.
burnt when mIRC was still in full force o.O
but the edges of the CDs have started to fray (is this the right word?) due to improper storage so i guess it is also time to do some disposal.
my music genre has changed alot since then.
although the fact that i listen to mostly "trash" hasn't changed.
this place has found a new reader.
-hello ying!-
maybe i should let more people in here.
we shall see.
my feet hurt.
after walking around orchard area for four hours after work on friday evening in my heels.
they still do now.
after walking around in bugis after breakfast today at breko cafe, a three hour rest before covering city hall > suntec > marina square > fullerton > hans at raffles place > back to raffles city via esplanade park.
i have just summarised my saturday :)
and sorry if i was very stoned towards the end.
was really tired out despite the two doses of caffeine haha.
gashapons are cute! but i can't see a way to fix the fridge leh.. how?
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i can't help worrying about her-
but she doesn't want to talk about it.
and i don't know if i should even ask.
this is going to be a long post.
i am one _______ person now. for a lack of a suitable adjective.
one. exchange program stuff.
i am not guaranteed any of my choices just as yet as the business school there has to personally review my application.
and i have to take a module that doesn't clear any AUs because one of my initial chosen modules is a year long course and i have absolutely zero interest in alternatives that can be replaced.
and i don't know which to choose.
and if i don't get at least two of my initial chosen modules, i am wondering if they'll let me withdraw my application.
two. work.
i don't mind my current job there, but i can safely say, i will not like working in this field in the future; which is a totally bad sign.
and whether or not to do postgraduate studies.
three.
i'm reluctant to say this, but i have developed an adversity towards _________. if you want me to describe it in my own words, it is no different from a cult.
and it is saddening to see someone you know well succumbing to it.
making me wait more than an hour when you are happily meeting "contacts" is not a nice thing to do, to put it mildly.
i realised i used alot of 'and's in this post.
and typing it out didn't really help in solving anything.
thankfully, my bittorrent problem is settled, and i've received all my "junk"; result of going amok in yahoo auctions.
just received my acceptance to manchester uni.
slight problem with the modules but i should be able to get three out the four chosen.
now is the time to keep my fingers crossed that i will clear AA205 :(
work's been good.
my colleagues are really nice to work with, minus the long periods of dealing with spreadsheets and the "ancient" accounting software.
i guess this is the only time i can leave latest around 6pm and slack the night away.
i don't wanna think about what will happen when i leave school and really work for a living sigh.
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事情会迎刃而解.
これ.. 求めすぎ？
if so, then i guess there's nothing i can do.
辛い時誰が側にいてくれて 誰の肩で涙を流した？
喜びは誰と分け合って 誰と手を取り合ってきた？
思い出しているよ
ふたり離れて過ごした夜は 月が遠くて泣いていたよ
ふたり離れて過ごした夜は 月が遠くて泣いてた
本当の強さは誰が教えてくれて 優しさは誰が伝えててくれた？
誰がいたから歩こうとして 誰に髪をなでて欲しかった？
誰があきらめないでいてくれた？ 忘れないよずっと
道に迷った時そして 道が遠すぎた時に
ひとりつぶやいていたよ そんなものだと･･･
これからもずっとこの歌声が あなたに届きます様にと
これからもずっとこの歌声が あなたに届く様にと
これからもずっとこの歌声が あなたに届きます様にと
これからもずっとこの歌声が あなたに届く様にと
- 浜崎あゆみ (2001)
sent zx off an hour ago-
its back to aussie for him and yj.
although there'll always be this rift between us,
at least its better than the aons it could have been.
thank you for making that important step :)
bitching with my colleagues sharon and michelle in the office friday evening after all my bosses left opened an entirely new perspective about working life.
while it may have been fresh, there are still lingering doubts that can only be addressed when i experience them for myself, i think.
aside from that,
i'm beginning to really look forward to jap lessons every saturday.
the way it is taught makes things easy to remember.
maybe that's why the teaching method is patented haha.
finally bought my lost paradise japanese version today!
twenty three bucks for two books.
reasonable, although i had to queue about ten minutes to pay for them =X
am considering not renewing my subscription after my membership expires in november. since i don't buy magazines anymore and they make up the biggest expenditure in there.
i wanna read NANA!! but one volume costs like ten bucks!?!? :(
３０歳誕生日おめでとう、イノッチ！！
いつの間にか、もう６年に応援した。
何もできるまで、すごい憧れの人です。仕事の情熱、周りの人に優しさ、価値観や世界観も。
この６年間、V6は、特に彼が、あたしのやる気の根源になるかもしれない。いいことかどうか、やっぱり関係ないぜ~
他に言いたいことがあるのに、日本語で書かれないから、自分しか知らないほうが足りると思っている。
さぁ、３０代を楽しいんで過ごしね！！
３０代に向こうなのに、ココロがデビューから全然変わらないことがすごいと思う。テンショーンがいつも上がって、みんなの命になれる、そんな感じでV6に大き存在である。面白い話が楽しませることも続けてよ~
そして、これからも頑張ってくださいー ジャーニズの一番目細い、あたしの一番好きなアイドル！ v(^^)
its lunch time now, and i'm the only person left in the finance department happily blogging before i go for lunch.
my lunch time is supposed to be from 1-2pm shhh...
i'm surrounded by stacks and stacks of brokerages to deal with for the day sigh.
if only all the amounts i pay out can be mine, i'd be a millionaire by the time my two months here are up.
and those are only brokerage fees :(
"warning - dead cockroach in the center of your rm!"
- reproduced from my mom's sms to me in the middle of the day... (!!!!)
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２１歳誕生日おめでとう、大倉忠義さん！！
いつも黙れるみたい男なんて好きやねん.. めちゃかわいい、カッコイイ男です！
何も変わらへんで頑張っていく~
in hong's house now.
waiting for hong, wj, zy and xinen to finish their round of mahjong. but they are still at "xi feng" and i'm thinking they will finish only at nine thirty...
japanese lesson today was quite okay, although the pace was quite fast for a so-called revision lesson. bombarded with numerous sentence structures in the three hour lesson.
most of the students there are anime fans (as expected) and i think i'm the youngest amongst the thirteen students hmm.
fanclub booklets!! =)
was confronted first thing in the morning with a task i totally loathe.
calling up clients to ask if they had received our invoices because the totals add up to more than fifty thousand american dollars each.
so i spoke to two americans, three british, three japanese, two people from hk and five from singapore in total.
and i had to compose my speech beforehand!
i don't like to talk to strangers over the phone lah, especially if you're asking for moolah.
but there's no choice, and aside from getting one wrong number, most were nice enough to check up their data for me :)
sidenote: the japanese are really polite people, and their english can put many in singapore to shame =X
went to the secret hideout after that :):)
fortunately we went early enough-
the beanbags were still available :):):)
but from what i hear, i have a feeling i won't like auditing either sigh.
i'd probably be better off doing what i am doing now.
this doesn't bode well.
republic plaza is a really remarkable building.
it houses-
x bank of tokyo-mitsubishi
x bank of america
x bank of kuwait
x bank of sweden
x ING group
x itochu group (huge oil trading firm in japan)
x harry elias partnership (prestigious law firm)
to name a few.. in addition to my small and humble company on the thirty-fourth floor.
the bank providing all the funds for my company mitsui in its huge volumes of swaps is just a few floors down =X
talk about a network of connecting banks and a flood of expatriates, especially japanese.
nothing much about work.
reminded me alot of my OOCL days because i came into contact with bills of lading and various shipping terms again;
in addition to swaps, derivatives, invoices and a whole list of accruals.
i'm still glad friday is a holiday.
i have a blistered toe :(
and i need new clothes.
say hello to the OL.
我是愿她永远幸福快乐，但-
有些时候我还是会希望她没走上沉迷于基督教这条路。
我也不知道该怎样解释...
so it was nine days of rallies drawn to a close.
and my flat has to be comfortably situated along the line which bisects the two constituencies, exposing me to the free music of rallies for both of them.
well, so the PAP won its majority seats with stronger opposition.
but nine percentage points is enough for them to think up some new strategies instead of using money as persuasion methinks.
but well, i will get my say five years later-
if i am still staying in this largest single member constituency and the first which is going to have three town gardens =P
low class stoning today =)
which took us to several playgrounds in the woodlands estate area all the way to...
the sdp rally in the woodlands stadium o.O
quite a number of people there; half the stands were filled.
the speakers covered every language from english to hokkien but we couldn't catch everything they said though. shouting into the microphone doesn't make for easy listening =X
work starting on monday.
why do i have mixed feelings about it?
i've been doing some thinking.
brought up by the whole issue about me not getting my japanese university for exchange and being offered two universities in the united kingdom instead and the following string of events.
it was no secret that my parents were happy that i did not get my japanese university and definitely preferred me to go for the manchester one.
and obviously i know the so-called value of the two universities are miles apart.
yups even got testified by some prominent engineering lecturer in ntu.
then i had to get two recommendation letters from my tutors. one agreed rightaway and asked me to draft one for her to vet, the next one rejected me right out, another also rejected me less rudely but not politely either and the last one gave me a positive response only when i sent a phone message. and, i had to draft one for that person too -.-"
my classmates should know who these tutors are respectively haha.
that's not the point though.
as i was drafting, i realised knowledge of japanese did not help me in any way, maybe except to enhance communication skills(?)
have been thinking about this japan issue way back when i was still in junior college. about whether it was worth all my effort.
as everyone except one told me, apparently not.
and i was thinking "what IS my aim with all these japan stuff"?
not surprisingly, i drew a blank.
my lack of direction and assurance was still there when i applied for PA in japan and that exchange university in osaka not too long ago.
i even went to look up the japanese embassy website for information on JETRO and JET, not to mention postgraduate programmes available there.
and-
i ended up applying for the university of manchester instead.
things happen for a reason.
i'll just have to take things as they come.
but for now, i shall still indulge in my weekly japanese lessons, tv and V6 =)
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V6 Summer Tour 2006
国立代々木競技場 第一体育館
8月3日（木） 18:30
8月4日（金） 18:30
8月5日（土） 18:30
8月6日（日） 16:00
8月7日（月） 18:30
北海道立総合体育センター きたえーる
8月10日（木） 18:30
8月11日（金） 18:30
名古屋レインボーホール
8月16日（水） 18:30
8月17日（木） 18:30
マリンメッセ福岡
8月19日（土） 18:30
8月20日（日） 16:00
鹿児島アリーナ
8月23日（水） 18:30
8月24日（木） 18:30
広島グリーンアリーナ
8月26日（土） 18:30
8月27日（日） 16:00
大阪城ホール
9月1日（金） 18:30
9月2日（土） 18:30
9月3日（日） 16:00
possible, but i don't want to kill myself with airfare costs.
not fated la i know :(
i realise i made myself sound quite unorthodox in the first few lines of the last entry. but, there it shall stay till i feel like taking it down.
reread da vinci code and finished confessions of a yakuza over the weekend, plus a lone wolf game book.
used to love lone wolf gamebooks when i was in primary school. no wonder my teachers used to comment to my parents that my essays were full of legend and gore.
was reading book 20- the curse of naar and i still marvel at joe dever's creative juices; the way places are named, descriptions of weird creatures and basically the concept itself.
just bought book 14 off auctions. that's how much i like the series.
it was only two buckeroos anyway :)
and who can resist him in a suit?
he looks damn good la X)
i can't wait for the next episode!!
but for now-
i'm off to full metal alchemist. i'm only at episode 23~
go edward elric!!