so tomorrow marks the thirteenth straight day of work.
may be the working blues or something along there,
but recently,
i've grown really tired of the concept of living.
pessimistic view,
but i've grown tired of managing expectations, living behind facades and putting up false fronts now and then-
all in the name of ________.
i don't know the right word(s) for this.
doesn't only apply to work though;
in fact, i quite enjoy work actually though it may sound hard to believe after clocking thirty hours of overtime in four days, including two days till 130am.
meeting the gals for a birthday celebration before heading back to the clients' tomorrow, hopefully for the last time before i embark on a new engagement.
hope i'm not too "stoned" or "apathetic" since its really what i'm feeling now.
there.
what was my point about facades?
-wheniamstonedorapatheticbeingthenicepeoplethattheyaresomeoneissure
topointthatoutandaskifimalrightwhatireallywantisforeveryonetojust
ignoremeimveryhappybeingawallflowerthatisisuck-
maybe i'm just tired.
*
finally registered for that exam in december.
hope not to put the thirtyone buckeroos to waste;
but news that november is a really tight period is dashing those hopes.
maa.. ganbatteikuyo~
i wonder if it's just me, but i feel really like _________ right now.
*sigh*
blame it on four-hour nights.
first time out of the client's place when its still light
after eight straight long days of work;
in addition to the somewhat late nights even before that.
at least the predominantly male company was good.
and i'm so screwed for tomorrow's FTT.
beginning to doubt i have time for JLPT in decemeber O.O
had a list of things to accomplish this weekend;
x town-ing for some errands
x clearing my room of the blue and white paper bags that have been piling
x burning out my almost 120GB worth of stuff.
...but at the end of saturday, progress is at zero.
first,
i get distracted by the musicmind concert dvd, then 3 years of FNS performances, 3 years of countdown concerts, V6's 10th anniversary television appearances and now, kinki kids' 10th anniversary concert just last month.
i'm a very satisfied girl now =)=)
partly due to the fact that i preordered this!!
the remaining question is... october how?
to go japan in the first week or hk in the last week?
i finally realise the inconveniences of working at a client's place without internet access argh..
*
good laugh with simpsons on tuesday night;
drinks on wednesday night;
shopping on thursday night;
and too tired for anything on friday night.
on top of the average knock off time for this week: 9pm.
and yes, that included national day o.O
*fingers crossed that i'm not called back tomorrow*
impromptu movie a few hours ago;
and i have already forgotten the title of it (probably because its two am in the morning and i'm beginning to see two of everything).
...my first movie in theatres since POTC2. you can do the math.
not bad-
simple plot, which cannot go wrong with me, and action sequences heh.
i happen to have a thing for movies with quite abit of "physical entanglement", fast cars and guns o.O
NR1-ed home again, which makes that two fridays in a row.
the last being drinks at cornerstone in robertson quay then... mcdonalds, after a seaweed craving-then-eating by several members of the group haha.
i hate the route, but three bucks instead of five times the amount if i took a cab more than makes up for the one-point-five hour journey home :(