i should really stop listening to emo songs..
the playlists contains a whole heap of songs, incl all 4 language.. of which i just realised that 99% of them are emo songs :(
save the AKB48 song. (yes im not ashamed to admit i have their songs in my sephiria)
hate feeling out of sync with myself..
or more accurately, out of touch. alienated.
.needs.to.stop.this.
but how?
and where are you when i want to talk?
i seem to have lost the flair for blogging.
thoughts just translate to jumbled words and phrases and which are getting tough to piece together.
besides that,
i'm returning to work tomorrow-
after 4 weeks break, of which 3 were spent in USA/Canada and the remaining 1 lazing around at home and accomplishing nothing specific..
but its a great feeling doing nothing in particular and meeting up with a number of random people who probably won't read this anyway.
and one of the best opportunities to sort out everything that's happened in the past half year.
being in a job that takes up almost all my waking hours, a real break to sort out everything does wonders for the mind.
although it made me more aware of my feelings toward certain stuff which ain't good :(
for a person who tends to read too much into things and appear incredibly level-headed while emotions churn inside, i should be thankful for my job;
since it takes up most of my time and therefore, my mind off unnecessary stuff.. sparing me the disgust and frustration i feel at other stuff going on around me.
maybe that's why i haven't thought of quitting (after nov 08) that is.
so, i return to the office with additional responsilities and job scope tomorrow;
to an entirely new client- a situation i haven't faced since a year ago.
on top of uncleared backlog since march 2008.
am i looking forward to it?
maybe.